I feel somewhat empty ... I dunno, what it is... Just made some cookies with my mum and my sister (she visited us after a long time) but ...well I guess I'm gettin' this sickness all housewifes get in winter...WINTER DEPRESSION -___- ....

But tomorrow I'll see my husband .... but still I am feeling of losing.
I am not missing him. Maybe it's that I just do not want to miss him, because when he goes to military I won't see him for a long time. I don't want to get broken by missing him. I wish I could cry, but it wouldn't help, or make anything better. And I am dreaming of cheating on him ... and I quite do not know how to cope with that. ...It's just fuqqing crap.

... so I just feel like an emo.